My Dearest Capone,
I will never forget the day I picked you up. When my student called me desperate to free you from a troubled life, I didn’t hesitate. When I saw you I instantly fell in love. You were so shy and unsure – rightfully so after what you had been through. Almost ready to turn one year old, you trusted no one. I often wonder to myself if you remember those darker times. I can only hope that you don’t. I look at you now my love, over six years later, and I can only see the bright and sunny dog that you have become. I like to imagine that this personality was always in you and you only needed the opportunity to let it shine through. You certainly brighten up every single day of my life.
Capone, I absolutely adore how you share my pillow with me and stretch out on the bed sleeping like humans do. How you watch television with me alert to every noise (Dogs 101 being your favorite show, of course). We are inseparable ~ best of friends, you and me. We tried a few dog parks together and have our favorite places to stroll. I love that you hate the ocean until other dogs encourage you to jump in with them. I have never seen any dog chase lizards as intently and determined as you; and then when they stop moving you just can’t understand why they don’t want to play chase anymore!
We have been through so much over the years Capone. We lost your cousins Pancho, Egon, Gino and Fuki and your sister Velcro. Through it all you stayed strong and supported me when I needed you most. Early last year when you got sick I wasn’t sure what to do with myself. I have never felt so helpless. I just wanted to ease your pain but after endless doctor visits and specialists consultations, there were still no answers. Finally, miraculously, after several months of worry, you got better. I will be honest with you my sweet boy I still worry every day that your fevers will come back. I cannot stand the thought of losing you. I try so hard to reason with myself that it is a part of life and death occurs for all of us, but I just cannot stand the thought of a day when I will not be able to see your face, pat your head or give you a hug. My heart melts ever single time you look up at me with those big brown eyes my sweet baby.
Honey, the purpose of this letter is simply to thank you. Thank you for being a part of my life. Thank you for loving me no matter what I say or do. I cannot thank you enough for lifting me every time I need it. You are my best friend and you mean more to me than I ever thought a single being could. I hope that you know how much I love you and how much I cherish the bond we have. The mutual unconditional love is more than I could have ever asked for in life. When I hold you in my arms, all is right in my world. And for that, I thank you.
Always and forever,